When can I attain Nirvana?

I can only say IM VERY GLAD & THANKFUL FOR NOT HAVING TO STAY WITH HER.

They've decided to repaint the flat so dat it'll look nice & clean for Ivan & jm's wedding day. Heard from Chris dat many ppl will come to the hse (as their own flat will not be ready) hence the big clean up.

Frankly, i can understd why they wan to repaint the hse. In fact, they have already repainted their own room. But to clean up now...its too early reali. The hse will juz turn back into a pig's sty in a week. But to paint the hse, u have to clean up rite? The wedding is on 9th Dec. Isnt it too early? But nvm...

I wasen feeling well & i locked myself in the room to slp. I seriously din tink they will try to paint the hse today. I mean, to clean the freaking flat alone will take ages! Chris came in to join me to slp after dat and we both snooze in bliss until his mum bang on the door. Once the door is opened, pieces after pieces of clothing, bags, plastic bags etc came flying into the room. She started complaining in a loud, high pitched & whiny voice, saying they need to clean the hse & paint somemore & we still stay in the room & slp, hw can they clean up lidat etc etc. She says dat the stuff is Chris's, so dun put outside, put in the room.

I duno if i heard correctly (i wasen feeling well u see..) but i rem her telling me dat the bed in the room dat i always use during the weekends will be thrown away as they have to make space for the wardrobe in ivan & jm's room. I tink they need to 'make' the room bigger so decided to shift the wardrobe to the other room. Cos its impossible to shift to the MBR rite?

I was like, throw the bed?? Ok, i admit, i do not use the bed. In fact, we slp on a thin single-sized mattress on the floor whenever i stay over the nite. Cos the single bed is too small for 2 of us...i dun wan to fall off the bed loh. At least on the floor, we'll juz roll to the floor. But w/o the bed...where can i put the mattress? The pillows, the bolsters? And if the wardrobe is reali gg to take the place of the bed, the wardrobe will totally block the windows. There'll be absolutely no windows already...But...well, who noes, if dat happens, i may dun have to slp over there anymore? :)

Im reali tired whenever i stay over there. Partly is cos im always hungry. Chris always slps till 3, 4 pm b4 he's awake. Its also a reason why we had our dinner at 10pm last nite. This morning, i've nv eaten anything till 3pm until he cooked maggi mee for me. Im sori to sound so pampered but...the kitchen stinks. Everytime i need to use the toilet, i need to hold my breath. Stinky smells + headache = not a good combi. The kitchen smells of decayed food. Its quite bad...

And why do Chris have to ask jm & ivan wat fridge they are buying? End up they noe wat fridge we r buying but he doesnt noe wat they r buying. Pls dun b mistaken dat im curious abt their choice of fridge. But i duno whether to laugh or cry at my own extreme guarded feelings towards them. Dun even want 2 let them noe wat fridge im having! Wuhahaha....am i turning into a mental case??

Chris, "Eh, wat fridge u all eyeing? The one we want hor, is even shorter than me."

JM, "XXXX (i cant hear this part as i was in the room), then wat brand u all buying?"

Chris, "F&P loh..but very ex.."

JM, "Wah, dats very ex u noe?"

Chris, "But save electricity mah.."

JM,"......(i also cant hear)"

And my bro...i duno wat else to say. He & my parents are bugging me. He bugs me abt his bank account thingy, my parents bug me abt whether he has emailed me etc.

Im tired. Why do i feel like im always doings things for the sake of other ppl? Then juz dun do lar rite? I wished its dat easy sometimes.

Im hungry now...its 9pm & i duno wat meal is this considered. Dinner cum supper? Bye, gota go cook my maggi mee.